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-Dheeraj

2010-The year gone by and me !

There is something in the air that compelled me  to write this year-end summary.

-Quitting smoking was the biggest achievement of this year.Many people asked me this, Why did you quit,What made you to think about quitting.I chose not to answer this particular question.But My heart is seeking an answer from my mind.It’s not that I hate smoking,It’s not that my doctor called me to do so,Its not that someone special in my life told me to do so.Reason was simple but more important than above mentioned reasons.

First of all,By nature I love my self.Good,bad,ugly whatever I am..I love myself.People say its very tough to quit or many a times impossible so I challenged myself And believe me it was not that hard.Every time when I felt like starting again I reminded myself of that challenge. Is there any difference in my life after quitting ? Crap.. No ! Initial one month was tough after that I never felt a need of it and my daily routine is same as before minus those visits to smoking joint.

-Weight gain was an issue in this year too.89 Kgs ! When I saw some of my old photographs I wished to go back in time.Go back in era of 55 Kgs.Better Body Mass Index is going to be in wish list for coming year.

- Many times on this blog I wrote about having a conveyance that transports me from one place to another on my wish.May be this year I came an inch closer to achieve that.

- I’m not very sure if this has any major significance or not, however this is worth mentioning that I became one level up in professional hierarchy this year.Economic benefits that my current job gives is now pretty close to what I was getting two years back ! No regrets but sometimes this makes me to think.

- Swimming practice was on total halt this year.This brings another Item for wishlist-2011.There is so much to wish for !

- No new movie in theater,No new book read to finish this year.

Eagerly waiting for odd-numbered year.Wishing myself,my family and all my friends a wonderful year 2011.

_ Dheeraj

Foriegn land and me ..

New delhi terminal 3 is awesome.How long it will remain that way I dont know but It was great ! I waited there for filght to Doha for two hours and time did pass really quickly.There were a lot of new things to watch at the airport.In a quick two and half hour I was at Doha airport.
From Doha to Washington it was 14 hours flight so I was little worried.what people do on that long flight.Do they simply sleep,Do they watch movies,Do they read books or what ? This was my first that long flight experince but I should admit it It was not that bad.probably because welther was good and there were no turbulances.I remember some 3 years back on a flight to London I had a very horrible experience because of those turbulances.
Reached and lost at Washington airport.It took me a while to realise that I need to claim my baggage and re check-in for my final destination.Once I managed to do that it took me a lot of time to find the Terminal C5 of washington airport.After a 2-3 minute walk and 1 min train ride I reached at terminal C5.Guess what ! I still had 1 hour before boarding to next flight.Quickly grabbed a cup of coffee and roamed around the terminal.It was soon time to board.This was a short distance flight so watched movie “Karate kid” ,Had Tea twice.Landed at SD airport at 8:00 PM.

And here comes the fun part.My baggage isnt been arrived at SD.Queried about it from UA personnel and lady was very supportive.She quickly found out the  location of my baggage.Told me that It is held back at DC and will reach within 24 hours.She took my Hotel address.And after 24

hours I got my baggage with a $250 e -citificate. cool !

I am here on a foreign land for about two weeks now.Time zone is changed so are ways of working.Nothing special yet.Routine office to hotel and sometimes visit to nearby malls/beaches.

Missing India and my family there.

-Dheeraj

This was my birthday !

This post was written on 11th june-2010 however posted today.

Today was my Birthday.Whats the big deal.Its yet another day of life except 28 years back same day I was brought to this earth.Is this a good reason to make so much  fuss about it.Is this the good reason to celebrate this particular day and not other days of life.Why not celebrate everyday of life -Celebrate that I am alive everyday.Cutting the cake,Having dinner at a posh restaurant with a nice wine in the candle night with your beloved ones.Distributing sweets on the occasion.Feeling special unnecessarily.If this the way to celebrate.I was not able to do the justice.

Stayed very late in the office.I was debugging a software Issue.Finally,Issue got resolved.Is this how I wanted to celebrate my birthday.This is arguable.

One more year has passed.I’m one more year closer to my death.Just two more years and I will be over aged to sit in Civil services examination.Just two more years and I will not be able to qualify  for any government jobs except a few. This day is wake-up call for me.Time passes very quickly.You are far behind from where you you thought you would be.Trivialities of life has taken precedence over crucial.Decisions were not made right.You were not able to hit the nail.

Having said that,I Thank God and my parents that they have given me a chance to celebrate the life and not just one birth-day.welther I’m able to celebrate or not -That is a different question. I thank everyone who conveyed their wishes for me and I thank everyone who hasn’t conveyed any message of best wishes for the day to me however I know they always pray for me.

I received an email from the Horoscope site I admire .This email was the best gift of the day.

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Situation:you may be entering a climate of affirmation and opportunity, perhaps in direct contrast to what has gone before. It is as if you have broken into a clearing after hacking your way through a thicket. The possibilities are so lush it’s almost embarrassing, although not all of them can be acted upon.Be sensible. You have to know yourself well enough to determine which of all the available delights is truly for you and you alone. Take care not to be greedy in this situation. Sharpen your powers of discrimination, use your intuition, and follow your heart.
Opportunities:you have an opportunity to elucidate conflicting issues in a current situation. Conflict arises to highlight needs that are not being met or communication efforts that are not being heard. Opposing groups need an outside party to help them see what is pulling them apart.

If you are well positioned for such a task, you could possibly serve as a mediator or facilitator. Although certain risks are inherent in sponsoring a sensitive, diplomatic dialogue, you have the right approach for easing this transition. By taking part in the dialogue, you could make a difference. Often people feel much better just having talked out their differences. Sometimes the solution lies in the listening.

Advice:learn all you can from recent successful experiences. Take note of what worked before and what did not. You possess awareness as to how to effectively apply your imagination to shape the world in productive and aesthetic ways. Thus, the testament to your talents may be revealed for everyone to see and admire.

Even if you had to leave it all behind, you know you could start all over among total strangers and succeed once again. This valuable self-confidence makes you free to strike out in new directions and not just cling to past successes and previous accomplishments.
Daily Lesson: align yourself with those in your situation that can’t stand up for themselves. You are called upon to set aside your own best interests long enough to take theirs into consideration.

This is not a criticism against you; it’s simply what is appropriate at this time. If you don’t do it, no one else will. If you don’t take the time to even consider it, then that is two counts against you.

Near Future:you are called upon to temper inflated expectations. Whatever motivated you in the past no longer applies, because it’s now apparent the situation is not going to turn out as you had wished. That doesn’t mean it’s destined to turn out badly. Reality takes a bite out of every dream. It’s a natural adjustment to any ideal or vision. Occasionally we have to accept a humbling development.

Although you have some disappointment to work through, don’t let it undermine your enthusiasm. You have not done the wrong thing, walked the wrong path or followed the wrong guidance. A zigzag path is just the nature of the path. You win some, you lose some. Don’t let setbacks take you out of the game.

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_Dheeraj

O Lord ! make me poorest !

This is a transcript of a internet messaging disscussion with one of my friend !

avi: If u ask lord dat make me poorest, I don’t think he can do it
avi: But ofcourse a thief can
dheeraj: He can !
dheeraj: There is little bit of God in everyne !!!
avi: the lord d god are i real imaginations
dheeraj:no he is not
have u seen the god in PCB or PCM ??
dheeraj: Yes
In the diode,In the transtr
avi: so hu else wr thr ?
apart frm god,coz diode is bijunctional
dheeraj: God was there with electrons
avi: oh !!! what he was doing there ?he was chakkar kat raha of nucls??
dheeraj: He was giving motion/force to electrons
avi: No,god is an excuse for those who do not believe themselves
dheeraj: Do you know ..What happens when there is interaction between electrons and holes…….– it generates light! So from where it came.Automatically??
NO with captal letters
avi: not only if it is light emitting diode
wt about silicon??
ok in sec 21 current is gone and ur inverter is dryed with battery
ask god to blow fan??
dheeraj: He can but why he will??
MAN has to answer this first
WHY ?Why should he ?
If there is valid reason thn he will do that also for man
avi: thats done..Coz human ask reasons, GOD do not
dheeraj: Who said ?
avi: me
dheeraj: MAN said that
humans can say that
avi: Have u heard God saying anything ?
dheeraj: No..Because I dont have that power to see him or to hear him..
I am very little in front of him
I am not capable to see him
This is the only proof of that
avi: oh neither does the other man …
dheeraj: No..
avi: standing juss beside u ??
dheeraj: There are few people who are not as liitle as me
They have listned god
Theay have seen god
They have talked with him
avi: now I tell you there is always a confidence and internal power in each human
dheeraj: you need to choose to acknowledge god’s existence…
avi: no will not
dheeraj: Yes ’cause there is liitle bit of god in everyone
avi: See I know and I have talked with GOD
but this not straight forward
dheeraj: Oki tell me one thing
avi: ?
dheeraj: Earth is perfectly distanced from sun why ?
How ?
Just perfct ..
Just a co incidence
??
avi: Now thats what I wanted,,, do you think that it is done by GOD
dheeraj: No you tell me
Is it done automatically ?
avi: before that I want to tell you something
Any un-proven thing in this world is given to GOD
where human stops thinking thn it starts nature
coz at this stage you can think of these unproven thing
dheeraj: I am saying proven things are also because of god
How DNA’s are programmed ..It is known..
So who programmed them
1s and 0s of them
logic gates made of DNA operates in your bloodstream and makes desision
avi: One thing for sure….in this world every thing is done,,, imagined ,,,discovered,,,,,,fullfilled by human
no one else
dheeraj: logic gates made of DNA operates in your bloodstream and makes desision ….are not made by human
avi: belief in GOD itself created by GOD
dheeraj: Humans dont have that much capability
SO called scientists are learning from that
They are not even able to understand
How that works
avi: so did got sent a telegraph explaining the DNA and all these ??
dheeraj: No he hasnt
Man is just trying to understand
These are just there interpretaion
avi: Ok juss give me a live proff of god and I’ll accept
dheeraj: right or wrong …God knows
avi: Adalat ko saboot chahiye
dheeraj: Saboot bhbi milega
Oki
So first you should agree with me that This world is not created by own
Agreed ??
avi: No
Now I prove it wrong
dheeraj: haha oki
try it
avi: Now tell me what we think is GOD ?
dheeraj: you tell
avi: isn’t it a hidden power ?
dheeraj: no
Its not
avi: can u see if it is no hidden ?
dheeraj: Can you see air
Can you see electrons
Can you see signals
Can you see ….?
avi: nature of ant=y thing defines it
Now it is Science not God

dheeraj: like the smell of a flower which can only be felt but never seen…… …
You dont have power see that unseen
avi: it is form in nature
ok tell me it humen who think alive
sry
dheeraj: What ?
avi: only Humen think alike ?
right ?
dheeraj: hu said ?
avi: I say !! because animals think differently
dheeraj: No two human think alike…
avi: they do
dheeraj: No.. They dont
else ths world would have been very boring place
avi: like me and u ??

dheeraj: Thats questionable
!!
avi: whatever it is… but there is no God
dheeraj: There is
avi: it is just a hypothetical thing
dheeraj: accept it..You dont have power to see him
You dont have capabilty to find him
Admit it !
avi: whatever is unseen…unthinkable…. undoable and untrustable is defined as God
isn’t it true ?
dheeraj: No..He is thinkable..He is seen by many.. He is trustable for them hu thrust him
avi: in real life ?
dheeraj: Yes
There are people who talk with GOD in daily basis
Just like any other chat
avi: they are called mad
dheeraj: No
They are called …..people with capability to find god
SO capable that God is talking with them
avi: ohho believe it !!! it is a blind belief and only created by Muman
dheeraj: Only ignorant human beings Say that
avi: Human*
dheeraj: Only ignorant human beings Say that
avi: one thing for sure those who beliceve in nature fight on or against God
dheeraj: Its not a question
God is there this is certainty
avi: no
dheeraj: No question of going in favor of it or against it
This is just that either you believe it or not
Those who dont believe …dont have power
Dont have power to accept it
And ya for proofs !!!
avi: don you think they are more afraid of getting it true ?
dheeraj: Say there is a peron who commited a serious crime
If a advocate is not able to proove it
It doent mean ..the person in qustion hasnt commited crime
Its just capabilty of advocate
If I am not able to prrove that GOD is ther
avi: k
dheeraj: Its not that GOD is not there
Its just that I am not capable to proove it
avi: k why daily hundreds of innocent people die ?
is it God who instucted ??
dheeraj: Becaue of there karmik account
for every person in this world has an account
avi: so karmik accident hv noting to do with god right ?
dheeraj: And their KARMA’s are recorded there
It has everything to do with GOD
avi: so y innocents ?
dheeraj: Because of their past life’s Karmic account
Karmic account is never delted or closed
avi: that is the problem …
dheeraj: Its a running account ..until you find MOKSHA (Salvation)
avi: All imagination or un-real thing are juss given a name God
dheeraj: Its not Imagination
It is perfcly Real
avi: I just belive in Nature and if you give it a name as God I will accept it with the characters of God
dheeraj: If you are saying that this world is running by chance…Thn I am not going to buy it…There is a controller….There is Creator..And there is destroyer
Nature is created by GOD
avi: But can not believe these mythological false
dheeraj: This is nt false….
This is false until you find the TRUTH
Now its upto you…
avi: and how long that would take ?
dheeraj: You want to find the truth
or live is false
Entirely upto you
There are people hu have found this very early
And tehr are people who are NEVER able to find it
avi: ok tell me one thing if this is not truth ?
dheeraj: ya
avi: every thing in this world that we are not able to understand
like for example gravitaion
or few real facts like why everdy the day comes and night comes
why earth revolves around sun
dheeraj: oki
so ?
avi: so where ever we find these.. don not we say that it is all because of aGid
God
*
dheeraj: Arrey ! Scientists have tried to find that…
They have found something
And what is truth… Only GOd has knowledge of this
avi: everytime why the word God comes for things which are un -proven
dheeraj: nOT ONLY FOR un-PROVEN…
For proven things also
GOD is the creator…
He is the almighty
avi: See I belive in you and as well as God if you think that God is an unseen supernatural power,, but if you try to give a name like Allah !! Ram … I wd say that it is crap
It is nature what I name God
All those things which are automatic by nature and can not be identifed by Human are God
dheeraj: Its not Nature.. Its an entity above that…God is in fire…God is in Air…God is in Water …or a liitle bit of him
I am not saying GOd is RAM or allah
avi: once it is discivered thn it is a science
everything you said is part of nature
come wid new words
dheeraj: No
Nature is Created by GOd
avi: This is Nature …who is god Noone else
dheeraj: it is the nature of fire to burn…But what is ther in fire that creates that burning sensation
Nature is just a physical world
Nature is just materialistic world
avi: Only thing I know is meaning for God differs oersin to person
dheeraj: Its not GOD
avi: so God is nothing before and after imaginations
he is not real
he can not do in physically in here
dheeraj: He is real…HE can be touched….But if you can…
avi: if he can then he is nature
dheeraj: He can be…But question here is can a man ?
can human ?
avi: oops !! its almost 2
avi: chalo disscussion jari will do it 2mrw in office

dheeraj: oki
avi: if syncman allows ??
ha ha
dheeraj: C ya if remain alive with GOd’s grace
avi: ha ha
you will because God wants ISR1

dheeraj:
avi: chalo fir b.bye
GN
m logging out
dheeraj: gn

Aaz aaye the woh…

Aaz aaye the woh, haquiqat mai…..Jo na jane kab se the kaval khwabon mai.Aaz aaye the woh…Na jane kitnee raten roya  jinhe dekh bhar lene ki aas mai.Aaz aaye the woh…Na jane kab se na soya jinhe pa lene ki pyaas mai.Aaz aaye the woh ….Saath jinka hoga manzil tak aisee bekaar tamannayen thee dil mai.

(Today she came in front of me who was there only in my dreams.Today she came in front of me,To get just a glimpse of her I spent weeping nights.Today she came in front of me,In hope to make her my own I spent sleepless nights.This falsehood was in my heart that she will be there with me till the end,today she came in front of me.)

Jo rahte the kabhi keval mere aashiyane mai. Aaz aaye the woh kisi aur se milne.Ab badnaseebi ki kya misaal de hum.Humse hee pata poocha unhone apne aashique ke aashiyane ka.

Jate-jate kah gaye humse ki kal unkee sagai hai.Ye Kahte hue unke hondh na tharthraye,Sayad isi ka naam bewafai hai.Humne bhi kah diya ki Kuch rootha hua hai hamse khuda,Verna maut ki arzee toh hamne bhi lagai hai.

Kal tak jo the apne aaz begaane hai.Kal tak jo chaandnee raat thee aaz andhiyaari hai.E-khuda tune ye kaisee duniya banai hai.

…………Later part’s English version will come shortly

_Dheeraj

Today’s horoscope !

Sunday, May 23rd, 2010 — No matter how clever you are, it’s going to be difficult to avoid the heavier emotions that are likely to surface today. You are often a champion at sidestepping tough spots, but this time it’s not worth exhausting yourself while trying. If you are willing to let go of your rigid agenda, you have an opportunity now to increase the level of intimacy in a relationship. But conflict is likely if you cannot be flexible enough to compromise

anabheejaat

Chale the hum bhi,usi rah par,usi manzil ki aur ,uNhi hum-raheeyioN ke saath.Jin rahoN par chalne wale har ek rahee ki aankhoN mai ek chamak thee, aur awaz mai ek khanak thee.

Hum bhi kam na the,RukeNge nahi manzil pane se pahle itnee sanak toh hum mai bhi thee.

Manzil pane ki ummeed mai toot jana beech rahon mai, koi aur baat thee.Manzil se pahle bhatak jana, koi aur baat thee.

Manzil par pahunchkar tootna aur doosri manzil ki chah mai nikal jane ka paagalpan ,hum mai hee tha.

Magar kambakht aaz woh sanak,woh hunar,woh paagalpan… kho gaya hai kahiN.Woh sabera ummeedoN ka…so gaya hai kahiN.

_Dheeraj

Either I am right or People are wrong !

Months back I wrote on this blog that ” Man by nature is selfish so they will forget what you did for them.Before they forget,You should become selfish and don’t give a hoot to world.”I wanted to follow this but It’s not that easy to follow.It requires courage.++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

Sitting on a chair thinking about past few days.Smoke cloud is not visible outside in the dark.I can feel it inside.It’s causing a kind of sensation in my brain’s blood vessel that transports blood from brain to heart.They say it’s not good that you feel it.I say ,I must have done some good in former lifetime that I can feel it.They say It can cause harm to me.I say,The feeling which I have in brain’s veins,The sensation I am able to feel is because Nicotine is killing those harmful tissues.I know it ‘Cause It feels good.This can not be only Nicotine.I never felt this way.This has to be something else,I question.This is weired that sometimes you go into the state of Blank where you don’t know what you should think and what not.You listen Song repeatedly and that too Linkin Park – Breaking the Habit.Is it already 100 times I have replayed this song.Am I counting.Can not be 100.It is 103 now.

“You all assume that I am safe here in the room Unless I try to start again .I don’t wanna be the one The battles always choose.’Cause inside I realize that I ‘m the one confused”

Question remains same Will phoenix rise from the ashes ?

_Dheeraj

Relation-ship.

Relationship is exchange of energy between two souls.Relationship is a bond between two people.Success of a relationship depends on what kind of energy is exchanged when two souls interact.Relationships can be of many kind such as Parent-Child,Teacher-Student,Husband-Wife.

You have to question yourself to understand how your relationship with other person is and question is “What do I feel when I come in front of that person.” ? NOT What does he/she feel when you go in front of him/her.

Flow of energy is inside-out ,from you towards other person.If I am happy, chances are that people around me will also be happy. Negative energy flow can impact the relationship very badly.

-Dheeraj